Hey 2009,

I thought I write you an open letter before you disappear onto the pages of history from tomorrow and I just would like to say thanks for bringing on the highs, the mediums and the lows. See, I didn’t expect quite a number of things to happen this year.

You brought on huge changes to everyone this year. A year that people would probably go ‘ugh, that was just plain shit’ without a thought how things has turned out. What they don’t know is that the negatives brings the positives. When people recognise this, they can make the inroads in their lives.

For me, it has been such an interesting year as I continued the ‘Yes Man’ fiasco into 2009 and ended it on my 30th birthday. Saying ‘yes’ made me learnt a whole new batch of things as I learnt that confidence is a thing that drives us to do many things. I featured in a short film for a friend of mine and that led me on to do a short film of my own. Popularity brings about more opportunities, an increase in the social circle and delivered me one unexpected thing in my life.

Other things such as jobs, changes of locations, self awareness, design, self esteem… ah.. self esteem is one huge thing that got me going places.

The lows? Gee, I’m going to keep this short and simple. I left a job that I felt was hampering my abilities to do ‘work’. An appreciation for what I am doing. I found out the hard, cold way that people doesn’t do this often and it left me wondering whether people are blind to this kind of thing. You learn about the crap that gets thrown at you and you get toughen up from it.

My depression kicked in during those awkward time and thanks to the love of my life, friends and family for propping me up the wall to make sure that I don’t go down that road. You know who you are and thank you for that.

Now, let’s look on the medium. I moved around a couple of times with my future wife, decided to go freelance doing website design with the name (you’ll like this!) “Blue Pants”, went and bought a scanner to finally scan in the huge batch of developed negatives to put onto my newly redesigned photography website, applied for various jobs, started writing a batch of posts… the list goes on.

It’s the mediums that keep me sane in between the highs and lows.

See 2009, you aren’t going to win this time around because I’m going to take all those experience and make 2010 a brilliant place to be.

Let me tell you how I am going to do this.

I’m not going to fear failure any more. I’m going to face it head on. If I didn’t get something right, I get 10 times the experience than the next person who haven’t done it. Granted it is going to be a kick in the teeth and the end game is that you learn from it.

I’m going to ask people for guidance when needed. I have survived for so long without help and now I need some experience first hand how to get this right over time.

I’m going to write posts, I’m going to make brilliant websites, I will make photographs that speak volumes, I will make good inroads in my life and how am I going to do it?

I got to start somewhere and that is from the foundations I have built in 2009.

So long 2009.

Mind the door on the way out will you?

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